What Does This Mean?

I was taught long ago that you never start a letter with the pronoun "I". You should write at least three sentences first in which "I" does not appear, the pronoun "you" being the preferred opener. Obviously the lesson didn't take. I try to start out "It was good to hear from you . ." or "You have been in my thoughts lately . . ." something like that. Not this time. This email is about me, my favorite subject, so I thought it was OK to start out with "I". That way anyone not interested can hit the delete key and move on in their life.

I have this brain that I call "my Great Brain". I picked that term up from a character in a series of short stories about a mischievous boy who was the leader of a back-yard gang of kids. I wish I could remember the name of it. I am accustomed to giving it - my own Great Brain -an instruction and in a little while it always comes up with a solution - an answer to my dilemma.

I say to my Great Brain "Great Brain I have this problem . . . how am I going to deal with it?" Then I turn off the light roll over in my bed and go to sleep confident that in the morning all will be clear. It never fails - almost never. What does it mean when, in the morning, I check in with my "Great Brain" and there is nothing there? It's a blank. No reply at all. It's like looking into the magic eight ball, shaking it hard, and no answer even an inappropriate one floats to the surface. What does this mean?

Sigh! It's such a hard thing to make an important decision without that feeling
of certainty that always comes when My Great Brain has given me "the" answer.

Perhaps the answer is - do nothing, so "nothing" is what comes up ? ?? ?

I'm going to have to sleep on this.